Anterior cervical discectomy and fusion (ACDF) is a surgery to remove a herniated or degenerative disc in the neck. An incision is made in the throat area to reach and remove the disc. A graft or surgical device is inserted to fuse together the bones above and below the disc.

At the moment of explanation That the surgical tools could not reach from front to back, That the surgery was not what it should be I can see myself holding a Boning knife and a cleaver Splitting lamb neck chops for a Healthy midweek stew, Fifty seven percent profit per portion and Salty enough to drive up drinks purchases – no Cheating, just Oxo’s flavoursome goodness.

After the first dressing change, the first view of The incision, Razor edged Precisely drawn across my throat I can picture A Telecoms engineer unable to open a Rusty cabinet, trying to reach through a Hole in the door to rearrange hardware inside Manipulating technology and spaces.

Why would anyone want this? Why the late hours sweating and dreaming with Coleridge at the edge of consciousness while a patient Philipino nurse from an agency plays the part of the man from Porlock?

I want to find the words, conscious of the book Ostentatiously placed on the bedside table, a Memoir detailing precisely The right to have a body that works as we wish it, not by Diagnosis but desire.