writing for the sake of writing, without knowing what you... not you, what I am writing about. 3 characters, and I know little about them, I don't know how to write them, and yet I'm writing them to learn what they are, but that hasn't been working for me eh. so little and I'm clinging to that littlessness, and then forgetting about what I wrote and starting as if anew, but I already have tons of material written, but whose is it, and for who. why am I even that focused on writing, thinking that it's my thing, thinking it can be good if I created stories, but is it.
ordering my thoughts here helped. damn I like writing, but I still don't know how/what to write.